Quitting things is one of my favorite past times. I am so good at it. I have quit many things in my life like piano, flute, running, kickboxing, college, and more college. When things get really hard and uncomfortable, that is my cue to bail. This is getting really hard for me. God is digging out some very painful splinters in my heart...and it hurts. He is leading me to talk about things that I just want to keep to myself. Honestly, it is taking everything in me to keep my feet planted right here; to not bail. It would be nice if God just took this issue away from me all together. But I know He doesn't always bring healing like that. Sometimes He draws us into a different place, a place of obedience. Sometimes we have to dip into the river 7 times for our healing. (Like Naaman in 2 Kings 5.) I feel like I've dipped in the Jordan river a few times already but a few times isn't going to cut it. He's asking for more. And if I want healing I need to wade back in even when it's uncomfortable. Even if it takes longer than I think it should.
So here goes.
I'm getting back in.
"Elisha sent a messenger to him, saying, "Go and wash in the Jordan seven times, and your skin will be restored and you will be clean." 2 Kings 5:10