Ok, y'all I'm just gonna be real here and say that I am weak. I'm struggling. Yesterday, I did good spending time with God and was quiet for a huge chunk of my day and it felt great. Unfortunately, I didn't work out at all and my eating wasn't so great. Dang, I do not like the way that looks. I want to be perfect and when I'm not, it's so frustrating. As you can imagine, I am frustrated a lot. Ha!
This morning, I got up and worked out with my friend Stephanie over at chosenforreagan.com and it was good. It hurt but it was good. Then I went home and made myself a healthy lunch. It was while I was watching The Office on hulu that the slope got slippery. I got on the ol' Google and found a recipe for single serving cupcakes. Did you know there was such a thing? Yeah, there is. So I whipped it up and scarfed it down. It burned my mouth and wasn't even that good. It was too eggy. I wasn't hungry...at all; I just wanted something sweet. You know what, while I'm being honest, I'm just gonna say it made two and yes I ate them both. Even though the first one was kinda gross. And now I feel like crap and I am embarrassed. While feeling this way, I have some choices. I can try and find a better cupcake recipe and make something much tastier. I can say screw it all and eat horribly the rest of the day. I can realize that I made a dumb choice and start back over from this point. I can also go into my room and talk to my Father about it. I can get in his presence and hide there for a while. So, I'm gonna do the last two options and I'll let you know how it goes.
Here's to transparency. Dadgum, it's hard.
What do you do when you mess up?