It's about to get really real up on this blog tonight. Cause why even do this if it's not gonna be real?
Hey guess why I haven't been posting much.
It's because I am not doing so hot. I am feeling dumb and embarrassed. Remember the verse I put up about setting my face like flint? Yeah, it was set more like undercooked fudge. Or nobake cookies. Oh yeah, speaking of nobake cookies. They did me in on Thanksgiving. I was doing so good not eating sugar until I saw these...
My resolve just went down the drain. And it has pretty much stayed there.
We have one more day of this challenge and I am so sad to say that I haven't given it 100%. Heck probably not even 50%. I don't know what's wrong with me! If I am not going to do something perfectly, I don't even want to try. So as soon as I mess up one time, it's always been downhill from there. Why can't I just be ok trying and be satisfied if I'm not perfect? Losing is so embarrassing! Anyone that has ever played a game with me can tell you how competitive I am. It gets a little out of control at times.
Here's the deal. I am really frustrated right now. I don't have any awesome spiritual revelation for you tonight. I feel dumb and am in need of some encouragement. That's pretty much it.
"Out of the depths, I cry to you O Lord." Ps. 130:1
Ps. I'm not trying to be all weird and dramatic here. I'm just being honest because that is what God put on our hearts for this blog to be. I'm not looking for attention, I just want people to see the ups and downs of my battle.