Saturday, March 10, 2012

Starting Over

Well, hello.  As you can probably see, I have been avoiding this blog like the plague. I haven't written recently because the only thing I would have to talk about is the amazing lack of self-control I've been experiencing lately.  Everything has been out of whack with me and I am just tired of it.

I had a nice visit at Monica's house yesterday, which is a rarity because we live about 90 minutes from each other, and we both had to laugh a little at each other.  So the conversation went something like this, "We are so dumb.  We know what we are supposed to be doing!  What is wrong with us?"  Yep, that sounds about right.

I shared with her that I have felt for a while that God is leading me toward a life that does not include sugar, bread, & potatoes.  I, of course, am not happy about this one bit but I know that this is what He is speaking to me.  When I tried to argue my case on this one, I felt God gently reminding me that there are countless recovering addicts who are living their lives each day without alcohol, tobacco, cigarettes, etc.  Yikes.  What do you say to that?

Don't get me wrong, I am not advocating Atkins or some low-carb diet.  I am simply admitting that these foods are triggers for me and, as much as I don't want to, I am going to have to lay them down.  So for the next 30 days I am doing a fast of these three areas of food.  Today has been the first day and I honestly feel relived, like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.  I don't want to be disobedient and I don't want to avoid this blog.  There is such a sweetness to walking in obedience and surrender.  I have known this feeling before and have let it slip away.  I am praying to be reminded of this when things become difficult and I want to turn back to my old ways.

Maybe you are like me and you just need to have a do-over.  It's ok.  We can be not dumb together.  Also, Daylight Savings Time begins tomorrow so set your clocks ahead tonight.  If you are reading this a few years from now, don't worry about it.



  1. wouldn't it be AWESOME if our journeys were straight, smooth, flat roads???? i love that you write even when you aren't where you wish to be. it's a testimony, an encouragement to the rest of us. i love knowing i am not alone in my imperfect journey.

  2. So it's now April 4th and I am wondering how you did with your fast? I too am having the ROUGHEST time giving up certain foods!!! I KNOW they make me sick (have fought a lifetime debilitating digestive illness!) but no matter, I just feel LOST without them!! I feel SO stuck! I pray you were able to find peace in the obedience! I long for that peace myself!