Back at it

Just a few days before I had our girl.

Oh, The Blog.  I've missed you.  So, here's a little update on my life 'cause it's been forever since I've written on here.  Our little family of three moved to a bigger house in our area last summer.  We got settled in and soon found out we would become a family of four.  I had a normal pregnancy and welcomed sweet Cora into the world 7 weeks ago.  Our lives have drastically changed and my heart has expanded to love another person more than I knew was possible.  I will probably share her birth story in another post.  What I have to say today is not quite as easy or fun, but it needs to be said.  

I have so many thoughts running through my head and I want to write about them all.  I feel like I just need to get back to the basics, though.  Why did we start this blog in the first place?  My sister and I felt God leading us to trust him with our food issues.  To try and go at this whole health thing from a different angle in which we surrender control to him instead of relying on our own strength.  After this long, I'm not exactly sure what that is supposed to look like.  I love the crap out of a plan.  Check lists are my jam.  I want to write my own 5-step plan to get skinny and then slow clap for myself when I fit into my old jeans.  But I know that's not what God wants me to do.  I also know that I will get right back into my fat pants because the change was superficial.  There's a reason why I'm unhealthy and I've gotta let God dig out the root cause of it.  He can't do that if I've got my own agenda and ideas as to how everything should go.  Sometimes I try to pretend like I can't hear what he's telling me when it's something I don't want to hear.  

Anyone else do that?  

Yeah, you know you do.  

There are a few things I know for sure that he wants me to do right now.  

-Spend time in prayer/quiet time every day
-Share my story on this blog
-Cut sugar from my diet
-Exercise

So, sugar is terrible.  It is the ever-loving worst.  At least for me, it is.  When it comes to sugar, I have no self-control.  It is one huge thing that is holding me back from freedom, so until I can not act like a weirdo with it in my life, it needs to go.  (I'll write more on this another day.)

These are things I know for sure and I feel like that's a pretty good start so that's where I'll start.  

I'll leave you with a very fitting verse for this whole giving up control thing...

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own.  Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track.  Don't assume that you know it all.  Run to God!  Run from evil!  Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life!  Honor God with everything you own; give him the first and the best...Don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline; don't sulk under his loving correction.  It's the child he loves that God corrects; a father's delight is behind all this."    Proverbs 3:5-12 The Message

-Monica


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